WAR- noun, verb, warred, war⋅ring, adjective Use war in a Sentence –noun active hostility or contention; conflict; contest: a war of words

jus⋅tice

–noun the administering of deserved punishment or reward

Today I have two definitions. Both are of value to my current situation. I read a quote today by Mary Elizabeth Braddon:

"There can be no reconciliation where there is no open warfare. There must be a battle, a brave, boisterous battle, with pennants waving and cannon roaring, before there can be peaceful treaties and enthusiastic shaking of hands."

I feel these words hold a lot of meaning and truth. To try and reconcile with someone before a fight the issues do not get addressed. Should a fight not happen, one person concedes to the other and no issue is ever dealt with. Only after airing all of our dirty laundry are we able to come to an agreement with one another and find a way to justly conclude a disagreement. However, the saying "all is fair in love and war" does not ring true. While it justifies extreme methods of war it does not correctly convey the true situation of war. Rarely is war fair. This brings me to my point. There is nothing in this country to protect the "little people" from the machine. Now my last hope in the world is to turn this blog into some machine hating bashing ground but I feel this issue needs to be addressed. For example, lets say you have a boss that hates you. You come to work everyday, you do your job, there is no problem with your performance... in fact you excel beyond the expectations of your job, but- your boss hates you. Whether it be because you are a Sox fan and she is a Cubs fan or because she feeds into the rumor mill and is unable to function at her position without it... she hates you. Should that truly be a good reason for her to decided to let you go? Now, each organization has their own protocol as to how to deal with this, some better than the rest. But, what is in place when an entire organization is corrupt? Who do they answer to? Do they really have the right to ruin the rest of your life because they do not have a structure that conducts business in a fair and unbiased way? What if the person making hiring decisions hates you because of something you did to her in high school? How do you overcome this? How do you move beyond bias in the work place? War...

You have to decide what is important to you and fight for it. While the individual situation may not be important to you the idea of justness is. On some level, isn't this why all wars are fought? So how do you fight a war when you have no nation behind you? No armor or fight tactics? How does one person take on a corporation in order to get Justice? I don't know. I have been told many things... fight, don't fight, comply, don't comply... what's the answer? I believe in fighting for what I believe in. I believe that the big shouldn't stomp on the little just because they can. Does this get me in trouble? Hell yes... but I feel better knowing I did all I could about things rather than rolling over and doing something I don't agree with. I guess it all depends on what your desired outcome is.

Anyway, I feel this probably isn't the best post but it's something that has been weighing heavily on my mind lately.... and I feel it's time to go to war. I must not worry about the individaul casualties along the way but rather the bigger picture. I realize that I may lose friends along the way, make more enemies... but in the long run it's what is right. People say there is no such thing as a "Just War" but I disagree. A war based on basic human rights can have no outcome other than a just one.

Tomorrow I go to the CEO, I present my case, if that doesn't work... I will pursue a higher ups than the organization itself and so forth until someone must listen to my argument. For an organization that claims to do so much good, this place really screws up a lot. Well, they shouldn't have lied about me to inquiring employers, they shouldn't have mishandled harrassment situations, and they should have been a little more willing to talk when they had the chance. I now feel it is time to clear my name and I will take it to anyone who will listen. This is step one. Announce the war. Step two, recruit those who have also been hurt by this place. Step three, compile a case against them. Step four, present the argument and allow them to respond. Step five, pull out the plugs and air the dirty laundry. For you have nothing to lose and Justice to gain. When you use their lies and logic against them, they will choke on their words.

Anyway, this is my rant. We will see what happens but for those of you who know what I'm talking about, let me know if you want to help. I intend to compile a letter to the CEO stating not only personal situations but agency wide mishandling. For those of you who do not agree with me, I apologize and I am sorry if your job ends up affected in the end. Would have been nice to have support before it got to this point.

For now, that's it. Until next time...

in⋅som⋅ni⋅a –noun inability to obtain sufficient sleep, e

So, I haven't updated in a while and I can't sleep so I thought I would update. I wanted to get more conscientious about posting. I don't have much interesting to say so I thought I would just update what's been going on in my life since I last posted. I have left my job, could not stand the moral conflicts anymore. I felt I could no longer in good conscious do that job. My last day was about 2 weeks ago. I am still looking for another job. I am also back in school. I have decided to go back to school to pursue a teaching degree. Hopefully this will allow me more opportunity than my Psych degree, which has gotten me no where. I am in a summer class now about teaching technology and hate it. I feel that it is bogus and have a great idea about why the education system in this country is failing. They are teaching kids that things are only worth living if they are "shiney and exciting"... they are telling them that if something is boring then you don't need to pay attention. But, this will be a post for another day when I have a little more time and brain ability to post. For now, it is simply something I have to get through. I am moving at the end of the summer and am really looking forward to that. I am also a little nervous though. I like having my own space and I am moving into a house with my boyfriend and 2 puppies. It will be interesting to see how I deal with this. I sometimes wonder if I am not meant to just be alone. I don't really seem to get lonely. I get bored, but not lonely. Is there something wrong with me? I hope to get some more followers for this bored so pass the word. I will start to update more regularly and with useful information soon. Until then, have a goodnight world!